Every week plus size model and advocate of size diversity in fashion and body acceptance Marianne Nykjaer discusses a topic related to these concepts. Last week she discussed “plus size models and padding“. Today Marianne writes a letter to her body.
I called you fat. I sat on the floor, my expanding thighs pushed against the floor, my belly sticking out, pinching and squeezing every inch of you I hated. I called you ugly. I looked at the cellulite on my thighs and the stretch marks on my hips and the meat on my arms and hated you for it. I looked at you in the mirror and cried. I called you disgusting, even though none of this was your fault and you did nothing wrong.
I looked at the cellulite on my thighs and the stretch marks on my hips and the meat on my arms and hated you for it.
I called you weak. Too weak to stick to diets that were exhausting and confusing you. Too weak to keep pushing when I had already pushed you too far, when I was already gasping for breath with my body on fire and you were begging me to stop, and still I pushed you. Too weak to be something, someone, you were never supposed to be.
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I called you worthless. I never said thank you. I never said I love you. I hid you and covered you up because I was ashamed of you. I was embarrassed to be seen with you. I judged you. I took everything you ever did for me for granted.
Dear body, I am sorry for the way I treated you. There isn’t a single person in this world that I have treated worse than you … and yet you carried me through all of this.
I see your scars and stretches and freckles, and they each tell the story of how I became the woman I am today.
Now I see your beauty. I see how long your legs are and how beautiful the arch of your back. I see your fleshy arms and juicy lips and gorgeous skin and soft gently belly. I see your scars and stretches and freckles, and they each tell the story of how I became the woman I am today. You are beautiful and perfect in every way.
Now I see your strength. You are strong and fast. You can run and you can swim and you can climb and you do everything I want you to, and you know how to push yourself without breaking. You still get stronger every day. You are a warrior and a survivor and perfect in every way.
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Now I see your worth. You love and laugh with all your heart. You see the best in people, always. You lift other people up instead of pushing them down. You are warm and smart and patient and kind. You are amazing and perfect in every way.
Dear body, I love you.
What would you say to your body?
(c) images: Arno Nieuwhof. These images are 100% retouch-free.