My hands are shaking as I’m trying on the bikini. I stare at my own reflection with tears in my eyes and feel myself getting nautious; physically nautious just from looking at myself. As I hear the sales clerk pace outside the fitting room, I cry in silence.  All I see is fat and flab and cellulite. I am hideous.

I could no longer look at myself without crying. I was a size 14 and I hated myself.

[dropcap]That[/dropcap] was me 5 years ago. I stayed indoors that summer, so heavily trapped in my own mind that I couldn’t enjoy the lovely weather outside and all the great things summer has to offer. I could no longer look at myself without crying. I was a size 14 and I hated myself.

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So much has changed since then. Not the size though; after a lot of jojo-ing my weight is stable at a lovely size 46. Crying in front of the mirror is a thing of the past. Even better: I think I’m effing gorgeous. The answer wasn’t changing my body or losing weight; the answer was changing my attitude.

 Crying in front of the mirror is a thing of the past. Even better: I think I’m effing gorgeous.

With summer upon us, I see women’s stresslevels rising. Because oh boy, we have to start showing ourselves in short shorts, tops and bikini’s! Magazines are telling us “how to get bikiniready” and “detox to a slimmer you in 10 days”.

But girls, the only thing you really need this summer isn’t a bikini body, but a bikini mind! You don’t have to lose 10 lbs first or rub a self tanner from head to toe just to enjoy your life. The only thing you need to enjoy this summer is a smile and some confidence.

So ladies, have fun this summer!  Life is too short to let insecurities hold you back. Remember: do you want a bikini body? Just put a bikini on your body!

(c) images: Marianne by Arno Nieuwhof. These images are 100% photoshop-free!

Marianne Nykjaer

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Marianne Nykjaer is a fashion lover, (plus-size) model and blogger. She mainly blogs about diversity in the fashion industry and body acceptance. She's quite into sports and passionate about (healthy) food, but her main focus is on mental health instead of physical health.

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